It might seem odd that I'm posting, and even more odd that I'm posting something beyond ootd but something personal. Writing is so much better then talking things out to me. When you write you can write out everything that comes to mind instead of you just rambling about things that don't actually make sense.
The feeling of a heart break is probably this worst feeling imaginable and personally wouldn't even wish this on my worst enemy. It this overwhelming feeling of coldness that feels like...
Crazy how i attempted to start writing this on July 2nd and still a month and a few days I'm still unable to accurately post my feelings. What am I to do? I've lost my best friend and the thought of that hurts me more then the fact that he was my love. Not being able to call or drive to see this person whenever you need to.
And of course afterwards they'll say they be there whenever you need to call them but how long is that invitation extended to. Is that just a few days, few weeks, few months or until they move on? It's just this never ending feeling on loneliness. Everyday things you used to do now reminds you them. You wear a certain piece of clothing and you're reminded of the exact time, place and activity that happened in that shirt.
Why do we put our selves through this thing called love? Not knowing the outcome and the effects of what will happen. Giving this person the power of your world in their hands. Just one wrong move and your world comes falling down.
Here I am on September 15th finally finishing this long and drawn out post. I've become comfortable with this final break up that just happened. I am not longer upset about the loss of this person because I know that if it was this easy to leave it wasn't meant to be. That there is so much more out there for me. Im at a new college and its a new semester where I can meet people who will make me forget all the pain I'm experiencing. I hope in the future I will be able to blog more and share my experiences because college is the last hooray before adulthood right?
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